Caution, fat person running

I've been sick of being fat ever since I realized that I was fat. It took me a bit because I can be a little slow on the uptake sometimes. I started gaining weight my junior year in high school and I didn't really realize it until about two years later. By then, I had gained 40 pounds and started to really hate my body. I used to be skinny, had the ability to eat whatever and not gain weight and those bad habits led to me downfall. So I've been trying (and obviously failing) to loose at least some of the weight for years. And in all those years the best I could do was when I had a tapeworm named George in my belly. George helped me loose about 15 pounds quite quickly because he wouldn't let me eat and gave me lots of diarrhea too. In some ways, I kinda miss George but it was probably good that I gave him the boot.

What really is motivating me at the moment is that my older sister is often mistaken for being the younger and me, the elder. This wouldn't be a problem except for the fact that she is 10 FREAKING YEARS older than I am. Talk about a reality check. I'm fat so I look to be in my mid-thirties. She's skinny so she's in her mid to late twenties. My vanity can only take so much and this is just killing me. Plus, according to Spark People AND my brother's Wii Fit, my BMI is so high that I am technically considered obese. Wow. I mean holy freaking wow. I. AM. OBESE and I don't even weight 200 pounds.

Anyway, so I am really trying for the first time in years to do something about it. Sparkpeople.com has been great in giving me some free strength exercises to do and I have officially been tracking my fitness and nutrition for three weeks now. Today, I even managed to run for the 2nd consecutive day. It's not a lot but it is something and I will continue to try to do something until I both look and feel better.

So give me all the encouragement that you can and this does include ripping the chocolate bars and Pepsi away from my face. They really aren't necessary to my exhistence and my dependence on them truly must stop.